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please don't stop preparing now like you do
Somehow, it's the worst thing that could possibly happen.
If he'd thought differently a few hours ago, Rin doesn't anymore. The fantasy of normalcy had been more appealing than the hard truth of it, and the panic of not knowing.
His feet take him across town to Yukio's apartment, churning the ground beneath them with quick strides. No longer effortless, by the time he gets to the building, he can't even think to take the elevator. His knees feel like jelly. It scares the shit out of him.
He slams himself against the door to Yukio's apartment when he gets there, sliding the key into the hole with desperate hands and clawing at the knob until he can get it open and flood inside.
"Yukio!" He searches the apartment, tearing into it with Kurikara's warm weight a fleeting comfort against his shoulder. Wherever his power's gone, that heart's still in there, beating away. Beating for someone. He knows that his voice is shaky, almost tearful. He hates himself for it, but he cries for his brother again.
"Yukio!"
If he'd thought differently a few hours ago, Rin doesn't anymore. The fantasy of normalcy had been more appealing than the hard truth of it, and the panic of not knowing.
His feet take him across town to Yukio's apartment, churning the ground beneath them with quick strides. No longer effortless, by the time he gets to the building, he can't even think to take the elevator. His knees feel like jelly. It scares the shit out of him.
He slams himself against the door to Yukio's apartment when he gets there, sliding the key into the hole with desperate hands and clawing at the knob until he can get it open and flood inside.
"Yukio!" He searches the apartment, tearing into it with Kurikara's warm weight a fleeting comfort against his shoulder. Wherever his power's gone, that heart's still in there, beating away. Beating for someone. He knows that his voice is shaky, almost tearful. He hates himself for it, but he cries for his brother again.
"Yukio!"
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Yet with the tables seemingly turned, all Yukio wants is to turn the clock back, and he wonders when his heart took the step required to make this possible. Has he given in to himself? To the thoughts swirling constantly in the back of his mind?
He sits at his dining table, tail carefully tucked underneath his shirt and ears hidden smartly underneath a conductor's cap, when his hearing picks up the sound of approaching footsteps. And then, Rin's voice.
Did Rin sense it?
He's on his feet before Rin manages to storm in, eyes wide and shoulders tense, but when Yukio's gaze falls upon his brother, he's in for another shock still. Rounded ears, even teeth. And the presence of Kurikara makes Yukio's pulse race, a flush easily rising to his cheeks.
"Aniki?" he says, his hand gripping tightly against the back of his chair, not sure where to begin.
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If not at his side, then Yukio's. If that's what the fuck is happening, he'll deal with the why and how and the implications later.
He crosses the room in his pajamas and shoves the sword roughly into his brother's hands, fingers stilllingering on the gentle, constant heat of the slick wooden sheathe.
"Take it," he says, pulling away almost as if burned, because he worries otherwise he won't be able to let go. There was something Rin had never done since his powers had been unsealed, and that's wish he didn't have them anymore.
He'd wanted to be dead, but he hadn't wanted to be normal again. He never had been normal.
"Do you know what this is about? This is some bullshit, Yukio. Are you okay?"
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It's a thin excuse, far from the real reason why his stomach is doing twists and loops, but judging by the look on Rin's face, he's none too happy with the change of events.
Is this some type of trick?
"I'm fine," he says, jaw tensing. "I woke up like this in the middle of the night, but thanks to aniki, I knew what to expect. Mostly." His gaze lowers, tail completely still where it's wrapped around his torso.
"When did you change?"